Indecision.
I was meant to post about this the other night, but suffered a lapse in memory when I did end up writing.
I’m having a little trouble deciding on my future.
It has been a fair while since I withdrew from classes mid year, and I’m still unsure how I should approach my life, and my career.
Do I focus on financial assurance, or chase my passion?
I have always wanted to be involved in the games industry, doing level design, animation or just concept art. This was a childhood dream, but now, something has changed. I want to further my art work, but not to the mandate of Company X.
Painting has shown me self-expression - expression is something that I’ve been avid in doing since I formed my own identity (you know, what everyone does during their teens).
Why can’t I do both?
I can’t… In 2007, while I was studying full-time, I did not paint a single thing (if my memory serves me correctly - if I did paint something, it wouldn’t have been completed until now). I neither had the time, motivation, or want to do so. School left me drained, creatively and physically.
That’s not to say that I didn’t enjoy TAFE. I loved it, it was great.
But here I am, now, contemplating a serious move to being a ‘professional artist’.
The downsides? A lack of money, people calling me a slacker.
The upside? Self-expression, freedom.
I don’t know… It feels like a conundrum.
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Bronnie says:
ooh I know about this!!!
I’m doing my accounting degree… yet am in no way am I like your typical accountant. I am a people person, not a numbers person I just happen to understand & actually enjoy accounting, but people suddenly assume I’m dull and smart. lol. neither of which is true.
As you’ve seen from my blog I’m into reading, cooking & photography. And would love to write a book one day.
But for now I am sticking to the accounting. I need to make money in order to enjoy myself later on in life. As sad as it sounds.
I think you have to decide what you *need* right now & in maybe 5 years? Do you have any other goals in life that require you to either a) make money or b) be creative?
Life is tough. But it’s also short, so do something you’re passionate about :-)
I hope I’ve helped, but pretty sure I haven’t… haha!
Hope you’re well!
Posted on September 12th, 2008 at 3:22 pm
Gentil says:
Haha, nah, I think you have helped.
Life is short, very short, and it goes by at a tremendous speed. My ultimate goal is to be happy, and enjoy life.. That sounds a little vague, but given how I’m such a pessimist, I think it’s a worthy goal. ;)
Sure, I have monetary goals, but they are at the bottom of my goal list.
I want to be able to express myself, as silly as that sounds.
And with painting, not only is it a passion, but it’s also an outlet. If it makes me some money, then all the better! I’ve always had a pencil in hand, as a child I was always drawing pictures (which were a little ‘dark’, but still) and to this day I still like to create. So in 5 years time, I think I’ll still be at it.
Posted on September 14th, 2008 at 7:18 pm